At the worst point of my life, They say right before your dreams become a reality, some evil force tries to take it all away from you. I lost 2 things, I loved very much...
My unborn child to a miscarriage, and the love whom I worked so hard to create a life for due to some unknown reason... A reason I can't understand...
Sometimes 2 people who've known each other for even a decade can grow into 2 very different people..
I am not an Angel, but I tried my best...
All I wanted was for this man to love me, the way I loved him...
I couldn't imagine hurting someone I loved, so I can't process the thought of him hurting me.. All of my great memories, all of our happy times, our memories, and photos, dates, and anniversary's, all gone because of one bad morning...
He could have made a better choice, that choice should have been him not hurting me, but he chose to hurt me... And did he hurt me in so many ways, he wouldn't understand...
The pain of your dreams going down the drain hurts like hell...
Not completely knowing that he understand the severity of what happened to me, and how that made me feel... and all the horrible nightmares...Something I don't think he'll understand...
Through out our 11 year relationship, he's rarely taken the responsibility for hurting me... I doubt he'll take this responsibility, and how I wish he would, How I wish he'd get help... How I wish he'd change... I seen the beauty in him, I seen a great person deep down inside... It's sad he doesn't know his potential..What's sadder is him losing me... this woman, who would give him anything. As i go through my heartbreak, and sorrow for this man I loved so much..I will try to remind myself...that he will never understand...
because of that I have too...